My oldest is on the autism spectrum. Today I received a link to an article about how they are relating the fact that if your newborn has jaundice at birth then they will also have a 67% higher chance of having autism. You read this studies and things like family history, location, birth month, age of parents and more... I read these and I almost want to cry (use to but not anymore) because I feel as if my son's life was a ticking time bomb from conception. I feel as if I personally did this to my child like a mother who drinks and her kiddo is born with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome. I know in my heart that I could not have known these things before he was born but it just kills me inside. Why him? Why does he have to live in a state of confusion the rest of his life? Why does he have to live life in an borderline panic attack? My heart breaks everyday for him. My heart breaks for his younger siblings who see the difference and try to take care of him and help him through meltdowns but do not even realize there is a name for this difference. I am tired of these articles. Please I do not want to read anymore about what autism is and how little we know even though it is a huge epidemic. If 1 in every 100 children were contracting polio in this country, we as a nation would be all over it, what is the problem here? What exactly is causing so many kids to be effected? It cannot be something that was always there, maybe a little but not to the extent it is now. Thank God for the steps he makes everyday. God has answered many prayers in regards Seth and Seth himself has literally saved this family by bringing my husband and I's priorities back to where they should be - God and Family.
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